I Really Don’t Have a Clue

I really have no clue what the hell I’m supposed to be doing right now.

Have you ever stared at your computer with no clue what to do next?

I’ve been doing that now for a while. Why don’t I just look at my planner? Or my stickies on my desktop? They usually can tell me what it is I need to do next.

I guess sometimes I’m just too dang tired.

Have you ever felt like this? What’s your remedy for this kind of thingy?

After I’ve listened to the voice in my head telling me the ‘shoulds’, ‘need to’s, and ‘have to’s’, I usually go outside to take a breath or two. Or go and pet Roxy. Those two things usually get me back into the present moment. Because by listening to that voice in my head, I definitely was not present with my Self. I was imprisoned by the chatter box that hijacked my attention once again.

That damn chatterbox.

But then I remember something about that chatterbox…….that it’s another component of my insides that has a job…….and that job is ‘to think’. I wouldn’t ask my heart to stop beating, which is one of its primary jobs, so why would I ask my mind to stop thinking?

Wow, I feel so much better now…….I remember and I smile. And you know what the best thing is about remembering this?

It’s that I realize I don’t have to listen to it anymore and I don’t have to believe everything it says!

Phew……..that sure does take a load off!

And it’s our thoughts that are the catalyst for the emotions that we feel in our body…….including anxiety.

But once you realize the primary job of your brain, then you can stress less. You can finally be aware that your mind thinks and that you don’t have to take its word as truth anymore. Doesn’t that sound like a great remedy! What great medicine it is to know that you not only don’t have to believe your thoughts anymore, but that you ARE NOT your thoughts either!

Now that I’ve written this post……not knowing where it would end up……..I’m so glad I did because it deepened that realization I had a long time ago that I am not my mind, nor my thoughts.

And I still may not have a clue what I’m going to do next, but I now know that there is the possibility that there is nothing to do right now but just BE. And it’s funny how when I decide to just BE, how the mind quiets down automatically……..but don’t worry, it will be back to its ranting and raving again. And why wouldn’t it……that’s its job…………

Can you relate to this? Have you ever become aware of the mind chatter that goes on without you even realizing it?

inhale ~ enjoy ~ exhale,


18 Responses to I Really Don’t Have a Clue

  1. I love reading this post because I can relate to it. Sometimes I experience absence minded and its really hard for me to catch up for some problems.

  2. This made me think of Zen Habits’ Leo’s advice about how to handle our days by letting go completely of To Do lists and sticky notes and just waking up and thinking, “What do I want to do today?”

    It sounds INSANE but I think he has it totally right.

    We really do know what to do, but we are fearful and grippy about outcomes so we adhere to methods when we could just follow our hearts.

    Again, I know that sounds crazy and goes against everything we are taught about being productive, etc.

  3. @Maryden25….yes, it does feel so good to see what we accomplished….for me I need to come from a calm connected energy and then the things I achieved feel in alignment with my being…….if not, I’ll do things that don’t necessarily light me up and give me that feeling……thx for sharing!

    @Sue yes, moments of self-love…..love that! the more time we spend in that energy, the better! :) thx for sharing!

  4. Finding practices and moments of self-love that quiet the monkey mind, yes, that’s what it’s all about, isn’t it?

    Thanks for your loving clarity!

    Love and light,

  5. It’s depressing when we have the list of what shoulds and have-to do when we cannot accomplished all those things. But in other hand, when everything are settled and we can say that it’s job well done, it is very achieving too!

  6. Oh yes, I do know this state of hypervigilence when I feel this urgency to do something NOW, but have no idea what that actually is. My way around lately has been to embrace my inner laziness – or let’s reframe it as my inner relaxation – as there is no urgency really, no life or death. A deep breathe and I’m almost there :)

  7. We don’t have to believe what our mind tells us… we are not our thoughts. What great reminders. It’s especially helpful for me to remember these things when my thoughts are going in a whirlwind! Thanks for this post, Gina!

  8. Love this concept of acknowledging that we don’t have to believe everything the voice inside our head says! Such a relief to recognize that we can observe it but don’t have to believe it!

  9. Oh yes I can relate! Lately I have let go of the shoulds and have-tos, actually I didn’t have a choice, my body told me to. I am slowly emerging but I am going for what brings me joy, and that’s how good things are happening :)
    Thanks Gina for this post!

  10. Gina, I resonate with what you are saying here totally! I was just typing to a client earlier about the difference between reacting and responding to thoughts and emotions and you’ve demonstrated this beautifully.

    Brightest Blessings,

  11. Ah yes that monkey chatter can drive you crazy if you let it! This is exactly how I was feeling this morning so I decided to catch up on some blog reading and this post was the perfect remedy, thank you ♥

  12. Thx for bringing your sweet self over to my space Carrie :). Yes, I love that….that it releases that feeling of separation………cuts through that illusion…..love that! thanks for sharing………

  13. Oh, I love this Gina! It’s soooo true. When we get sucked into the shoulds and need tos, forget it. I love your perspective that the mind is just doing what it’s supposed to do, just as our heart. It releases that feeling of separation that’s so common when we feel at odds with ourselves. Thanks for sharing your truth!

  14. It’s that pesky lizard brain from the cave days that likes to keep us on our toes and protected from wild animals! Good thing you calmed it down.

  15. Oh that monkey mind, loves to hang out with me too. I have found that as long as I don’t let it take over all the time then I’m fine, and a little ignoring does’nt hurt as well. What a great reminder how when we just let go and not fight ourselves so much we can releax with the relealization that all is well afterall.

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